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No Longer Dating...I'm Committed

A few months ago, I was standing in front of Life's next step with a mouth piece and boxing gloves. Ready to open my trench coat and bare all the naked parts inside... I was ready to take a few jabs, get a few bruises and dust myself off after the judgment set in. The dust has settled. I’ve learned that no one was fighting back but me. I was my own judgment. Now, my journey continues and I’m thinking about commitment more than I ever have before. What’s it like to take on this forever kind of a dedication to a goal, a person, a lifestyle, a dream,... it's an all in kind of a feeling. The kind of feeling that, quite honestly, makes me want to lace up my tennis shoes, open the door and run as far away as fast as possible in the opposite direction. Am I willing to put myself out there, to be all in ? Then, ( gasp ), tell the world what I really want and relentlessly and authentically pursue it! Do I want that kind of accountability? For them (you know I mean you, my dear read...

My Journey and Naked Truth

Ever feel that pressure in your chest? The tightness of the air in your lungs? The pit in your stomach?   It’s difficult to decipher if you want to yell, scream, run, cry or laugh hysterically and uncontrollably. I’m not sure what this feeling or emotion is and maybe there’s not just one emotion. It is possible when this happens that your body is being high jacked by a collaboration and culmination of a bunch of feelings fighting for which one is most real. Feeling real emotion. Now, that’s something. For me, it’s time to feel. It’s time to be real. It’s time to open up. It is time to live. It’s time to love. I have avoided every single second of these feelings and this realizing for approximately 15 years, 3 months, 29 days, 31 hours and 56 seconds OR, more simply, 483,913,916 seconds. That’s a long time. Especially a long time not to feel what you feel or express real, true, authenticity within yourself and others. The best parts of me have been comfortably protected behind a ...